"You're not a bad mom"

We had a rough weekend with Gus as far as napping and sleeping at night goes. We went to visit my grandparents for two nights. The day we were leaving started out with Gus not wanting to take his morning nap at the normal time. That night Josh and I went out and Gus stayed with my grandparents. When we got home we found out he had fought to go to sleep. He then woke up around 3 am. I got up and lay him down, and he proceeded to start crying every 10 minutes after I put him down. I was exhausted, and each time he started crying I had almost fallen back asleep. After an hour, I finally told Josh so he could put him back down. By that time, Gus was screaming. Josh decided to feed him because that seemed the only solution. I went back to bed and cried. Why will Gus not sleep through the night??? Yes, he has done it a few times, but he is over 10 months old. So many people I know and read about have babies that sleep 10-12 hours at night.... What am I doing wrong???

After Josh fed Gus, Gus went to sleep. Josh came back to bed and held my hand. I just started crying. Then he said, "It's ok to be frustrated. It doesn't make you a bad mom." That was what I needed to hear. I wasn't mad at Gus. I was just frustrated, exhausted, and out of ideas.

The next night was a little better but not much.

We came home yesterday, and guess what..... Gus slept until 6 am. I was shocked. It made me never want to leave the house over night again (not really!!). I don't want to be one of those people who can't do things because her children are on such a strict schedule.

Anyways, life goes one. My job right now is to serve and take care of Josh and Gus. And for this time, that may be getting up multiple times during the night to get Gus back to sleep.

I am thankful for my sweet husband who helps me and tells me I am not a bad mom.

I am blessed everyday by my sweet little boy. And even if I have to get up with him for several more years, he is worth it..

I am so blessed, I am reminded of it everyday. This post is not meant to be complaining. It is me being honest. I have tough days, and I get frustrated. But I always know- I am blessed.